"May the Lord keep watch between you and me when we are away from each other." (Genesis 31:49b)
Last month, I took a huge step in letting you play outside on your own. It was scary to let you go outside without my guidance. So many what ifs...what if there is a car outside and you're not alert enough. What if your playmates bully you? How will you defend yourself?
But I did it! I did it because I love you. I wanted to know how you would react when there's no Mama to keep you safe and defend you.
I must say you passed with flying colors. When the little girl took over your train and wouldn't get off it, you did not throw a tantrum. Instead you talked her out of your train. When still she wouldn't move, you went to her nanny to talk to her. When a small truck passed, you stopped and even hid yourself. When you were thirsty, you went home to get your water bottle.
You are indeed growing more independent. The time of letting you go is fast approaching. Honestly like most if not all parents, I dread the coming of that day. That's why I treasure every moment I have with you right now -- when I can still kiss your armpit and you still let me cuddle with you.
The best thing I learned from this moment is it gave me a glimpse of what you can be. I am confident that you can stand on your own when the going gets tough. I can trust that you are responsible enough to do the right thing.
And my hope when I face my God on judgment day, His words to me would be, "You did a good job raising your daughter."
I love you for always,
Mama
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Wow.
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